11:11

craving for : ben & jerry's and green tea frappe >:(

recieved some pics jst nw ;


me with nai on new year's eve.
(steph! why dont have you?? cant rmb.)



jiang's surprise bday on 2oth!
(yes everyone but her is present cos shes the one taking the picture from above :|)

\enlargeable.

and yucks! made the awfully slow discovery of the hugeee -ve impact of my numerous hair traumas. looking very atrocious. must leave my hair alone for as long as i can help it ._.

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new love : stereophonics! haha. though they sometimes sound a bit like greasy old men.

and on the topic of love,
i shall briefly comment that
love = cheese.
it sticks with you, makes your words turn into cheeseballs, fluffs and fattens you, makes you feel airy, like you can lie on cotton candy clouds and not fall through. and even if you fall.. okay i shall stop here.
see, love = cheese.


and i know as i am saying this
i am jinxing everything.
thoughts of a mixed up superstitious cynic.
i know, paradoxical irony.

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Brokeback Mountain ; 3.5 popcorns (could hardly keep my eyes open..a tad toooooo draggy though uber sweet and moving content and graphics. but i really do think it ws the vodka, sab)

Casanova ; 3 popcorns

Syrianna ; 1 popcorn (DISlike it.)

wanna watch Hidden and The Constant Gardener! but..

urgh.
the stress is mounting!
hate the new stuff im learning this year.

and the poddie mini's capacity is too annoyingly tiny..am too darn lazy to pick out songs so tht more new ones can be added so i keep listening to the same old ones..and everytime i try to bring myself to delete some songs i end up convincing myself that i do need all these songs too though the truth is i don't really listen to them at all so i STILL wind up listening to the same old songs and thus end up caterwauling endlessly like i am now. haha.

da, congrats! i knw hw happy you are with all your smileys. will find out who tht itchy mouth bitch is!

yz tsktsk! as always im faster and furiouser than you! haha. further discussions in sch! haha.

read my thoughts and my lips please.
(i tried your ears.)

so am i.

in economics, NY = C + G + I + (X - M)
i have a similar theory, where C + G + I + X + NY = M

G = gender
I = ideas
C = contasts
X = external forces
NY = no/yes, indicting eternal perplexion
M = mental distortions that cannot be corrected

assumption currently witheld is that this is a vicious cycle that cannot be escaped.
(evaluate and tell me its incorrect?)

good talks with everyone but me.
good talks with everyone but you.

backspaced all my way back here..shall not unleash monstrous me -looks at da.

im sorry im such a letdown that i know i am.


random, but so UNtrue.

Your Birthdate: December 12

You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame. You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them. Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing. You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship. Your strength: Your charm Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics Your power color: Indigo Your power symbol: Four leaf clover Your power month: December

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

charm my ass.

to everything there is a reason,
and a time for letting go.

happy early 18th birthday
dada dsf!
wtfk!

i love you (:

(mushy stuff shant be overly stated and privy to all eyes..will do discreetly! hahah)

mini party for the jiang tzu earlier on (:
love springing surprises one after another on her!
she and her little grave hugs HAHAH.
went a bit nuts with the lomo in sch and at the zoo (manny's place, actually) and pulau hitam+horlicks at island creamery (and us cheapskates printing pictures too)

oh, how everything changes.
random laments.
off.

no doubt; underneath it all.
do you really .. love me, underneath it all

frou frou; breathe in

foiled sullied plans will not dampen the insistent spirit of loveee (:



happy
belated valentine's, &
early birthday jiang tsu & sis!

p.s truckloads of work = mounting stress :|
p.p.s i Y da+dinah! mina youre being missed, dear girll.

YYYs

You left it, I sent it
I want it back
You left it, I sent it
I want it back

If I had you here, I'd clip your wings
Snap you up and leave you sprawling on my pin
This plan of mine is oh so very lame
Can't you see the grass is greener where it rains

Accept it, Don't let it
Turn the screw
Accept it, And let it
Scream back at you

the simplest words

i guess i was too caught up with myself
and it didnt occur to me that
i'm sure they didn't mean it after all.

this must sound weird, but i suddenly recall
when i was a small kid i didnt understand how could people have good and bad days,
i was never really happy or sad..i just did what i had to do everyday
(i hope i dont sound like some emotionless kid)
and now i realise my realisations out of the blue..
that sometimes good and bad things can happen
but maybe the happiest is when i can turn the sad around
and the saddest is when the happy has to be turned around by the sad.
but if i don't turn it around and around i wouldn't know to appreciate every little thing and still be the ignorant stony little kid i once was.

this is basically what i'm talking about..
:(:

okay totally rambling to myself..

bloated from xlb lunch.!
oh, last night saw tings for a little short while the first time since she left..i'm just beginning to feel the miraculous impacts of technology. the webcam is really cute. haha.
hope you know it made me (: ! (not the technology, silly. you!)


sigh.
weird things that people do.. :
jet hold on

the subject could be you.

amidst all the laughter and fun //

such is the state whereby
when you miss your friends,
you visit their blogs.
you fail to leave a tag despite.
you type a text message.
you fear to send it to them.

the hesitation,
the disappointment.

hint of pathos.

this othello essay assignment will be the death of me.


p.s kill the kinship. grr.

white rose petals and tinkerbell.

she said -
puttin it all aside, the year's ending (or so it will be soon) and i wouldnt be seeing you 8 hours a day anymore wendyss.. maybe we'll look back and wonder why we were so unhappy and realise maybe they were happy times.

(:

he said -
surprise !
a day in the park,
is the life.

(:

lovess.


..
so lay all your troubles down
i am with you now..


alrighty. off for econs ._.

expectations

the to do list.
\ cut the pangs
\ cut my bangs
\ quit blaming pms (pre/post) on every sad day
\ quit being so insecure (hard though..it's been my middle name all my life)
\ stop popping cny goodies into my mouth (omg FATTTT + ZITTY face.)
\ stop homework procrastination
\ treasure what i have.
\ MEET UP WITH LONG LOST PALS.
\ BE HEALTHY. (perpetual flu, itchy eyes and heavy head! :c)
\ BE NICEEEEEE.
\ BE HAPPYYYYYYYY.

big smilesxzsx.
(:

tmrw's a Brand New Day (Forty Foot Echo)

so what if it's too late for New Year resolutions..
i can do Chinese New Year resolutions!
is this a new year for the Chinese?
i think it is..so as a Chinese, i get to start anew!
happy lunar new year, people!

cny was okay ths year, i guess..
$$ !! food !!
noisy aunties, billowing cigarette smoke, lousy tv progs.
always lose money gambling!
was fun at jiang's (: